The prompt for my International Zine Month 2020: Zine A Day project for Day 25 was Viewfinder. For me, that meant finding beauty in different perspectives of my body.
I have always struggled with accepting my body for what it is, and I have never loved it. I hate looking in the mirror, I am never happy with the figure that looks back at me.
This little exercise is a step closer in finding that lost love for my body. I used a viewfinder to select different parts of me that I usually try to hide. I enlisted Stuart to help me photograph them. Stuart has always been good at helping me to love myself, and today was no exception. When we had taken enough photos, I downloaded them to my laptop and forced myself to flick through them. There were imperfect images in there, and it took me all my effort not to just delete them all. I didn't. They are still in a little folder on my laptop. I then used these images to create illustrations.
Making myself focus on the images enough to draw them was supposed to make me see the beauty in my body. I think I did. A little bit at least. This journey to self love is a long way, and this is but a small step... and I am glad I took it. It did help. I am growing. Slowly. Very slowly.
One day I will get there. For now, here is a zine...
This mini-zine is printed in traditional greyscale on a 100gsm paperstock to form a mini 8-page folded booklet.